i have had a shitty week. I have been racked with fear, panic, and anxiety. All I can affirm right now is that I’m not going to beat myself up for feeling these things. They are real and raw. They are a part of my experience. I wish they weren’t but the sooner I own them the less they can control me. So, I own my fear, panic, and anxiety. And they will not own me.
Today I am thankful for the sun. I am grateful for meaningful work. I am grateful for people who are willing to go to bat for me. I am grateful for people who are willing to love me despite my neurosis. I am grateful for friends with whom I disagree and yet we still love each other fully. I am grateful for Kendrick Lamar, the Revivalists, and D’Angelo. I am grateful for Lola.