I’m having a really shitty day. I’m not good at handling anger. Or shame. Or regret. Or guilt. Or embarrassment. I don’t know what to affirm about myself tonight… other than that I deserve better than what I’m getting right now. I don’t deserve to have my worst moments thrown in my face forever. No one does. I affirm that I am redeemable.
I am grateful for my lovely sister. I am grateful for her 40 years of life and our 35 years of shared life. I am grateful for friends who go to bat for me. I am grateful to work at a place that is apparently better at showing grace than the church. I am grateful for random gifts in the mail from folks who are on my team. I am grateful for good Scotch. I am grateful for cops and firefighters who show up at community meetings and listen to community concerns. I’m grateful for the people who won’t give up on me.