A few of you have asked about my resignation from The Pittsburgh Project. The official word came down yesterday. You can read it here.
I wanted to say just a few quick things here. I apologize in advance if some of it is cryptic, but it has to be that way for something as public as a blog post.
When one chooses to be a leader in any arena, their private life comes under scrutiny. Fair or not, leaders are judged as much by who they are as what they do. The Pittsburgh Project is an amazing organization that has done immeasurable good for literally thousands of people. An organization of this caliber requires a leader who can, at the very least maintain a healthy balance between those things that happen in their personal world and those that happen in their work life. I was not that person. I came into what I knew was an impossibly difficult job in the midst of wrestling my own demons and baggage. My self destructive tendencies got the best of me. I was not fit to lead.
I want to take this opportunity to apologize to the board and staff of the Pittsburgh Project, many of whom invested a great deal of energy and trust into my leadership. I am so sorry for this unneeded distraction. I love you all and will continue to support you in any way that seems appropriate.
If you are reading this, I hope that you will continue to support TPP. If you know me, you know the great love that I have for that place. Young people on the North side and vulnerable homeowners all across the city are loved in meaningful, tangible ways through their efforts. The value of their ministry is incalculable. Many of you loved them because I was there. I hope that you will continue to love them.
As for me, I am going to do what I should have done at the end of 2011, which is to take a break from doing ministry. This has been a heartbreaking, humiliating, and humbling season of life. Hopefully it has been a wake up call. I have deferred maintenance on my psyche that I can no longer put off until tomorrow. I need to get my head and heart clear. And in the mean time, I need to figure out the best ways to love my family and friends. For those of you who have reached out to me, please forgive me for not reaching back as quickly as I should. I’m overwhelmed and embarrassed. I will reach back. I promise.
So that’s me.
How are you?